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overall grade
Jan. 1st, 2007 | 05:38 pm
Overall I have had a great Christmas and New Years. For Christmas I got a ferrets,birds,and a piano. Oh I'm also getting a new couch in about a weeks o I'm pretty happy with life. today is my goal of looking at beauty schools in Indaian, and see which one I wnat to go to and what school there by, due to Cale wnating to go to college and he actully doesn't mind doing t in Indiana. I said I was cool with school in Indiana, as long as we didn't stay her or at the two year mark we move to Jappan. I think that woudl be rad, since Jappan is in all though "our" bitch.
For Neew Years, I got my ferrts home, and let them wnadwer for a few hours as Cale and I played bored games, it was awesome, come midnight and I was hittin the bong and kissin Cale, I had a fab evening and I hope everyone did aswell.
Jill you didn't make it into Indiana or at least not my neck of the woods I hope you're okay.
And Mathue the Wii is awesome I now know what you feel
For Neew Years, I got my ferrts home, and let them wnadwer for a few hours as Cale and I played bored games, it was awesome, come midnight and I was hittin the bong and kissin Cale, I had a fab evening and I hope everyone did aswell.
Jill you didn't make it into Indiana or at least not my neck of the woods I hope you're okay.
And Mathue the Wii is awesome I now know what you feel
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28th is the day I wnat you to come over
Dec. 26th, 2006 | 08:45 pm
Ya, i would love for nyone who doesn't have plans to ocme over tHursday the 28, I'm not sure what we will do I'm sure wathc movie, drink, smoke, or just be loud.
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What to do with oneself?
Dec. 22nd, 2006 | 03:02 am
I'm up and bored,
I want some smoke but can't get ahold of my homeboy. I need to fill out apps, but I know I'm not getting a job until after the holidays. But i could still have them filled outa nd turn them in I guess the sooner is probably better.
Cales gonna come home and play videogames all morning and all I want is some fucking smoke. Cause I'll dink around the house and clean, and read while hes entertaing some friends. Then he'll go to sleep and wake for work. What am I gonna do today?
I want some smoke but can't get ahold of my homeboy. I need to fill out apps, but I know I'm not getting a job until after the holidays. But i could still have them filled outa nd turn them in I guess the sooner is probably better.
Cales gonna come home and play videogames all morning and all I want is some fucking smoke. Cause I'll dink around the house and clean, and read while hes entertaing some friends. Then he'll go to sleep and wake for work. What am I gonna do today?
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Slumber Party!!!!!!
Dec. 16th, 2006 | 04:38 am
Me and Julie have stayed up for a good part of the night and just played with our myspaces, so everyone who has one should go check mine out and leave me some love
Also I wnat to have a x-mas party but I don't have any friends that seem to have time for me
Jill is in her own little world and mat has a the game system
wii which I guess is okay to ditch people for
Nick has school, adams in france, and well I guess its just me and a big bowl of eggnog for myself
Also I wnat to have a x-mas party but I don't have any friends that seem to have time for me
Jill is in her own little world and mat has a the game system
wii which I guess is okay to ditch people for
Nick has school, adams in france, and well I guess its just me and a big bowl of eggnog for myself
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Do I need one?
Jul. 9th, 2006 | 06:10 pm
4 I haven't updated for some time, but I don't think any of you really mind now do you?
On the 4th of July, I felt like I stepped into a time warp. I was at Grandma Betties house, most of the gang was there and I felt like it was one of the old parties almost. But I woudl ahve loves Bryan and Rianna to have made it, and Jordan woudl have actully helped the effect also.
We played games and had our lives indangered by a future Fireman with fireworks. Oh the irony!
As we were playing Horse shoes I had come to the conclusin that i suck at it, and I'm sure everyone else would agree with me. As I was throwing the shoes I tried to visualize hitting the prong stiucking out of the ground but, all i woudl do was almost break peoples shins or feet. So it was not my gane.
We also did play Dodge ball, I threw a tantrun before we all played because I didn't want anyone pellting the ball at me bruising or even making me bleed. So all of the people promised if they threw it at me it would be but a tap.
After the games we went to a barn show. The only great band there was of course TEK.
We all went back saw fireworks lit off, and then slowly departed.
Good times guys, I'm thinking a bowling party would be great what do you think?
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Adams.....
Jul. 4th, 2006 | 01:04 am
mood: 
drained
Thats were I will be,
hopefully you will be also!!!
hopefully you will be also!!!
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This is how you made me feel....
Jun. 27th, 2006 | 02:04 pm
mood: 
crappy
Its the same feeling you have when you wake the next morning after a family member has passed,you realize it wasn't just a bad dream iTs real. I had wished with all of my being that it wasn't true,but it is and I have to face it.I always felt that I had tyo try hard to be good enough,enlightned enough, religious enough, or smart enough to prove i was worthy of you. But it was to much, I shouldn't have felt like that but i did.
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Are you really friends of mine?
Jun. 26th, 2006 | 09:27 pm
location: My bedroom
mood: 
cranky
music: ISIS
I hate writting things that I feel no one is reading, I enjoy the thoughts that are provoked by my writtings/life. I like to be told what I'm doing wrong,right,and just talked too. I feel like I'm not being heard.
I'm not trying to pitty myself but I have had a hard year so far and it really hasn't gotten any better. I'm looking to further myself in life but all I keep doing is quitting and I just don't know why. I think "Brit, what happend to the persistant you? The girl who just goes up to peope and talk to them, works her ass off, and plays her ass off.Do you guys have any clue on what I'm talking about?
See when I went to Seattle I really thought about myself, and what I needed to do to get where I wanted to be, I know now what I need to do, I just don't know how to make that first step.I feel like the people around me see things in me that I don't good and bad. Please if you guys can give me any insight I would greatly value it, if not I think I'm deleting my livejournal, and well maybe I'll make a drastic move as to delete you from my life.
I'm not trying to pitty myself but I have had a hard year so far and it really hasn't gotten any better. I'm looking to further myself in life but all I keep doing is quitting and I just don't know why. I think "Brit, what happend to the persistant you? The girl who just goes up to peope and talk to them, works her ass off, and plays her ass off.Do you guys have any clue on what I'm talking about?
See when I went to Seattle I really thought about myself, and what I needed to do to get where I wanted to be, I know now what I need to do, I just don't know how to make that first step.I feel like the people around me see things in me that I don't good and bad. Please if you guys can give me any insight I would greatly value it, if not I think I'm deleting my livejournal, and well maybe I'll make a drastic move as to delete you from my life.
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(no subject)
Jun. 24th, 2006 | 01:58 am
I just returned form Texas! It wasn't at all fun in my book, my feet have swelled up, I have had 10 million headaches induced by the thought of me dying from drinking and driving or just plan reckless driving
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Its a test of my will.....
Jun. 20th, 2006 | 10:31 pm
mood: 
confused
I thought assisting in Driving/travels for transporting would be easy. Well its not for me, I ahve high anxiety, and it was apparent today. I thought I was going to have aheart attack three tines, and got a huge headache in direct result of that. But I have to pay Calvin back so I ahve to finish this weeks runs. Maybe by the end of the week I will think I can do this for the time being. If not I will have to look for a job most likely in Goshen.
I'm tyring to find training courses iN Goddman Indiana and I'm getting nothing but colleges, no programs just for training and certifaction. Uhhhhhgghggghhggg
I just wnat to get two/three months worth of money and get the fuck out of here. All I need to do is find a roomate in Seattle and then but aplane ticket and I'm off like a whores nylons. I can find a job out there, I can apply to phlabotomy classes out there, beauty schools out there, I can be a waitress, a anything I just need to get out there.
Did I tell you about this rad car I saw? 74 Vega, 1000 dollars, runs well , not to many miles on i, interioir a little eeeeeehhhhh. But nothing thta will kill me, uuuuhhhhhh what the hell am I suppose to do, I just wnat to go, but I need to stay, I need to just get a job I can work 40 hours, get money, and do nothing but that for a month and a half.
I don't wnat to go on this run, I returned early this evenig around 7, and the were suppose to leave out around 2:30 go to bowlinggreene, kentrucky, drop of a trailer for motor cycles, and the hook one up and go to irvine texas.
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Hey, Hey,
Jun. 19th, 2006 | 07:57 pm
mood: 
crazy
music: Shakeria(hahahahahaha)
We're putting it in drive, off to dallas Texas tonight ! I have a job, I'm an assistant. I keep track of the financial aspects of food,lodging, and fuel. Read the road signs and the map, direct where to go, keep track of the log book, and well enjoy the ride.
I will be getting paid for this, depending how long it takes us to get where were going and where it is is how much money I get cut, as long as I get money to pay my bills and save for my license I'm good.
I have had a crazy two and a half weeks. Good to the horridly bad. I have sobbed,laughed,choked,and fallen, in every way in life possible. I'm in love with a man who isn't in love with me, I'm in love with Emerald city and I'm going back to make my life there, Fuck the male species for the time being, I'm going solo, and focusing on bills!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who's with me
Vagina Power
I will be getting paid for this, depending how long it takes us to get where were going and where it is is how much money I get cut, as long as I get money to pay my bills and save for my license I'm good.
I have had a crazy two and a half weeks. Good to the horridly bad. I have sobbed,laughed,choked,and fallen, in every way in life possible. I'm in love with a man who isn't in love with me, I'm in love with Emerald city and I'm going back to make my life there, Fuck the male species for the time being, I'm going solo, and focusing on bills!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who's with me
Vagina Power
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dooms day
Jun. 8th, 2006 | 05:45 pm
mood: confused
So I am currently still In Seattle. Bryan and I have been given a little more time to feel things out. So far everyday i ahve been on Craigslist looking for a job in the area, I ahve quite a number that I would love to send my Resume` to, so all I need to do is updat6e my resume/make one. I'm going to ask Bryan to see if he could help me do so, I'm not the most savy with forums on things like that, if I were to actully get a chance to stay here, I've promised my self to take entry level computer courses, every thing I learned in High school kinda went in one ear and out the other, I mena I have some of the basics but i could be alot better. So wish me luck everyone, I'm trying to do this for myself, I want to do this for myself,
I will miss my family, they think I had something to do with the horrid robbery that accured at my mothers house, I can't believe it, the only person in my famiuly sticking up for me is my sisiter, the one family memeber that I barely can get along with for more then a few hours. But she has and I'm thankful for that.. I will be returning back to Indiana to tie up some loose ends, I'm not sure when but I will, and i hope to see a few of your sweets faces when I do.
I will miss my family, they think I had something to do with the horrid robbery that accured at my mothers house, I can't believe it, the only person in my famiuly sticking up for me is my sisiter, the one family memeber that I barely can get along with for more then a few hours. But she has and I'm thankful for that.. I will be returning back to Indiana to tie up some loose ends, I'm not sure when but I will, and i hope to see a few of your sweets faces when I do.
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Thing should have been diffrent.
Jun. 6th, 2006 | 08:20 am
I'm in love with the man that I ahve come to visit in Seattle and he says its just not the time right now, but something inside me say to not let go, not in a weird obsesive way but to not give up on hope. THere are many things in my life that I will be changing and this isn;t one of them, I'm going to keep in contact with him and one day I know this will cacoon into something grand.
THeres just something in me that says this is the on, I have never felt this way before I don't dare tell him that because it will only make things more sad instead of allright, we both need time I'm afraid, I just have to get the tears out a few more times and I will be full exceoting of this. But I'm not going to let go. I'm going to find a job and work hard svae all my money and intime i will be told where I need to be, by my heart and by the lord, he will show me a plan I'm not sure when and not sure how long the plan is for but it will happen in time, and time is all we have. It seems as though time can be an eniemie but its not, I'm thankful for the time I'm going to be given and the time I ahve been given.
I don't wnat this to be the last time I see Bryan befopre X-mas, I wnat to see him again, I want to be able to see how thing are for each other in a few months.
Since I will be moving I will be needing to get a cell phone so I will be reachable, so I ahve to go throught the whole not having a phone for a few weeks and then get one, but I'm sure I will ahve accces to the internet so, any one can still email me on myspace, livejournal, or at my regular email Nightlover_101@hotmail.com.
THeres just something in me that says this is the on, I have never felt this way before I don't dare tell him that because it will only make things more sad instead of allright, we both need time I'm afraid, I just have to get the tears out a few more times and I will be full exceoting of this. But I'm not going to let go. I'm going to find a job and work hard svae all my money and intime i will be told where I need to be, by my heart and by the lord, he will show me a plan I'm not sure when and not sure how long the plan is for but it will happen in time, and time is all we have. It seems as though time can be an eniemie but its not, I'm thankful for the time I'm going to be given and the time I ahve been given.
I don't wnat this to be the last time I see Bryan befopre X-mas, I wnat to see him again, I want to be able to see how thing are for each other in a few months.
Since I will be moving I will be needing to get a cell phone so I will be reachable, so I ahve to go throught the whole not having a phone for a few weeks and then get one, but I'm sure I will ahve accces to the internet so, any one can still email me on myspace, livejournal, or at my regular email Nightlover_101@hotmail.com.
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I'm innocent......
Jun. 5th, 2006 | 12:31 pm
Last Tuesday or Wednesday, my mothers house was robbed, it was either done while I had two males suspects over to hang out, while I was smoking my cigerettes outside, or it happend that they broke in and robbed the place. They stole jewlry, clothes, camcorders, video cameras, money, bathroom products, and much, much, more.
I found out Friday evening when I called my mother to tell her I had made it safely to Seattle, Washington. The first words out of her moth were" your in big trouble, some of your friends robbed the apartment. Calvin (mothers boyfriend) is very mad at you and doesn't wnat to see you or speak to you.
She later in the conversation told me that she ahd made the choice to ask me to move out. She said that Calvin wouldn't live with me so it was either him or I and he chose him, its okay I won't hold hurt bitter feeling towards her, it her choice and she has every right to decide that way.
So when I return jIll has so gracisly informed me that I can stay with her for a few days, maybe I can get a job at Ihop like her, I just wnat to leave, all I need to do is get a job and save up, I'll pay a few bills in the process but it will be hard to stay somewheer that you hate,
Bryan and I are not Girl friend and boyfriend any more we both need time and have to really think this through, but now that I'm homeless amybe things will change and I can move to cali, or somewhere and it will help me out. Its the long distance thing that is really hard for him and I can completly underastand that.
I just ahve lost alot of things in the past week and a half. Actully this year has been atrying year for me. But I will live and thrive
I found out Friday evening when I called my mother to tell her I had made it safely to Seattle, Washington. The first words out of her moth were" your in big trouble, some of your friends robbed the apartment. Calvin (mothers boyfriend) is very mad at you and doesn't wnat to see you or speak to you.
She later in the conversation told me that she ahd made the choice to ask me to move out. She said that Calvin wouldn't live with me so it was either him or I and he chose him, its okay I won't hold hurt bitter feeling towards her, it her choice and she has every right to decide that way.
So when I return jIll has so gracisly informed me that I can stay with her for a few days, maybe I can get a job at Ihop like her, I just wnat to leave, all I need to do is get a job and save up, I'll pay a few bills in the process but it will be hard to stay somewheer that you hate,
Bryan and I are not Girl friend and boyfriend any more we both need time and have to really think this through, but now that I'm homeless amybe things will change and I can move to cali, or somewhere and it will help me out. Its the long distance thing that is really hard for him and I can completly underastand that.
I just ahve lost alot of things in the past week and a half. Actully this year has been atrying year for me. But I will live and thrive
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Life has just begun.......
May. 23rd, 2006 | 02:10 am
mood: curious
Dear Diary,
I had a busy week last week. Monday and Tuesday I watche dmy grandmothers children that she usually babysits. It wasn't bad at all just very tiring, my Grandmother has something in her spirit that i just don't think I have. I'm thankful that she does, she really has done a great service to her community, shes watched children for so long, wow, what a gal.
Wednesday thru Sunday I stayed at my sisters house, Wednesday and thurdsay I helped her, get ready for the garage sale. Friday and saturday i watched it with my mother and sister, I was planning on attending The Electric Kalidascope show but my family needed my help and I chose my family over friends. I hope to be able to get some friends together though soon and just kinda have a day where we hang out or soemthng? I don't know I just want to amke sure I ahve a chance to hang with Jill, Mathue, Adam, and Nic, all at the same time in the same place.
I had a wondeful, very tiring weekend. It was a good weekend though.
Oh, Sunday was my mothers birthday dinner, it was okay, I was having and off day kinda, I just didn't feel hungry, and I just kinda sat there listening to my family, I mena I love them to death, as disfunctional they may be or I may be due to them I love them, But I did feel that there was a lack of passion in all my familys conversations, but I was really tired maybe thats all it was.
I had a busy week last week. Monday and Tuesday I watche dmy grandmothers children that she usually babysits. It wasn't bad at all just very tiring, my Grandmother has something in her spirit that i just don't think I have. I'm thankful that she does, she really has done a great service to her community, shes watched children for so long, wow, what a gal.
Wednesday thru Sunday I stayed at my sisters house, Wednesday and thurdsay I helped her, get ready for the garage sale. Friday and saturday i watched it with my mother and sister, I was planning on attending The Electric Kalidascope show but my family needed my help and I chose my family over friends. I hope to be able to get some friends together though soon and just kinda have a day where we hang out or soemthng? I don't know I just want to amke sure I ahve a chance to hang with Jill, Mathue, Adam, and Nic, all at the same time in the same place.
I had a wondeful, very tiring weekend. It was a good weekend though.
Oh, Sunday was my mothers birthday dinner, it was okay, I was having and off day kinda, I just didn't feel hungry, and I just kinda sat there listening to my family, I mena I love them to death, as disfunctional they may be or I may be due to them I love them, But I did feel that there was a lack of passion in all my familys conversations, but I was really tired maybe thats all it was.
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well I feel like a gigglely young school girl
May. 17th, 2006 | 11:45 pm
mood: 
hopeful
This is true, I feel oh so pretty today and I'm just loving it. Right now I'm trying to figure out which way I wil be traviling to Seattle to see my boyfriend, theres the Amtrack Train, or theres flying, I'm really starting to lean more towards the train. I think that would be awesome to be in a train just watching the land pass before my eyes, just having time to myself, with no one there. I think it would be great "me " time. My boyfriend and I want to see each other so badly. We just have to cordinate our scehdules. I also need to choose which way I'm going.
I don't know how long I'll be staying either, so that needs to be stated. Maybe I can just go and come beack when I want? I mean I don't have anything here to rush back to.
This weekend I'm helping my sister with her gaarge sale,that should be a chore in itself. But I have a few things in so maybe i'll make some more money then I started with.Actully my whole lifes content practically in there. If I get rifdof all my stuff I have nothing to leave behind, or any baggage to carry with me
I don't know how long I'll be staying either, so that needs to be stated. Maybe I can just go and come beack when I want? I mean I don't have anything here to rush back to.
This weekend I'm helping my sister with her gaarge sale,that should be a chore in itself. But I have a few things in so maybe i'll make some more money then I started with.Actully my whole lifes content practically in there. If I get rifdof all my stuff I have nothing to leave behind, or any baggage to carry with me
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Road Trip?
May. 12th, 2006 | 04:59 am
mood: 
anxious
music: Queen(number one greatest hits)
Thats right i've been invited to be a oart of a road trip to Cali. By a friend of the family, they know I have had a rough firts part of the year and the family and friends have come to the conclusion that I need to get out into the world.
I have said yes. I have a few things they are having me contimplate no, and for once there are no people in that.
I got a letter in the mail form myself, form 4 years ago, Yes i wrote to myself in an English Class, It was the best English class I ever had, with Dear Mr.SonaFrank. It brought back old memories.Lucky the Dog,Digraming sentances,Fat sister jokes,prank phone calls, its was just so sad to hear of his passing a year after my departure to high school,most by all this time had forgotten about the letters, we'll That man kept to his promise and so did his family. His brother found the letters in his house, and kept them, and every year after he sent out letters to seniors.
Well Thank you Mr.Sonnafrank for the great lessons and great laughs.
I have said yes. I have a few things they are having me contimplate no, and for once there are no people in that.
I got a letter in the mail form myself, form 4 years ago, Yes i wrote to myself in an English Class, It was the best English class I ever had, with Dear Mr.SonaFrank. It brought back old memories.Lucky the Dog,Digraming sentances,Fat sister jokes,prank phone calls, its was just so sad to hear of his passing a year after my departure to high school,most by all this time had forgotten about the letters, we'll That man kept to his promise and so did his family. His brother found the letters in his house, and kept them, and every year after he sent out letters to seniors.
Well Thank you Mr.Sonnafrank for the great lessons and great laughs.
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Bryan from Seattle
May. 9th, 2006 | 12:29 pm
mood: thankful
I've dedicated a whole subject line and entry to bryan,
I have alot to say about him but I'm not really going to say anything on here about hime, at least not to personal, i'm not that tough yet, He's acred about me for the past two years, and I'm truly thankful for that. he's been there for me in the good and the bad, he's been there when I've been loved,abused,trashed, and smashed. Thank you Bryan
I have alot to say about him but I'm not really going to say anything on here about hime, at least not to personal, i'm not that tough yet, He's acred about me for the past two years, and I'm truly thankful for that. he's been there for me in the good and the bad, he's been there when I've been loved,abused,trashed, and smashed. Thank you Bryan
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May. 2nd, 2006 | 05:13 pm
can't remeber what i told you last time so I will just say whatever comes to mind.
John Vanderslaice show with mathue and Amanda
Hung with Justin Gibson, brittany Powell, Matt Powell, Jermey Lacky, Trevor Ritter,
had the brown Bottle flu a few times
had a job then sorta didn't
John Vanderslaice show with mathue and Amanda
Hung with Justin Gibson, brittany Powell, Matt Powell, Jermey Lacky, Trevor Ritter,
had the brown Bottle flu a few times
had a job then sorta didn't
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forgot
Apr. 24th, 2006 | 12:21 pm
mood: 
amused
so i kinda forgot to twll you about me weekend, we'll I hung out with brit powell and let me tell you don't mix long island ice teas with jose wowowowowowow
that shit will erase your memory.......
that shit will erase your memory.......